Sunday, September 29, 2002

today- from 8 am, beginning to work like an indo housemaid, cleaning here and there, washing, sweeping, mopping, scrubing and got into shower.. and my hands.. urgh~

after that, hoped onto bed and fell asleep again..

been takin alot of naps today... tired.. tried to study, but nothing came into my head.. nothing at all..

granny was playing mah jong round 2pm.. damn noisy and irritating ( her voice, aunts voice, and the bing bing bang bang mah jong sound) but i still manage to fall asleep...
till round 4pm++ loo kuan called.. and went to jj... he was wanting to celebrate my bd earlier ( still have 2 days to go) cuz monday might not be that convenient..
everything went on fine... and .. my bd present.. a set of mashimaro from mc d.. hahah.. then we went to san fransisco to have.. tiramisu.. mm.. love the taste of it when it melt inside my mouth.. but i personally prefer the 1 in dome.. well.. wut i appreciate is.. at least he've got the heart..




then..arrived home round 9.30++ and bla bla bla..

actually i wasnt in the mood of going out.. but i did promise.. and i need to borrow the magazines ( interior design) so i went..

feel like hiding in a corner and start crying out.. why are females such complicated creatures?
why am i thinking stuff which is not right?? why m i making my life miserable??

Friday, September 27, 2002

eyes are wet..
listening to 'close to you'...not really a musician, but can hear that the melody is really sweet n harmony..









URGH!!!!! im a BITCH.. feel like bursting..




chin kuan left.... im gonna be missing her..



yen......



lie yuen.....she said.. she felt that i like siow wei.. and that's CRAZY




zzen.. still the same..

Wednesday, September 25, 2002

duh~
typed everything liao.. then all dissapear..~
now need to re-type

biology project- handed it up with lie yuen yesterday, after school.. duh~ this the worst project i've ever handed up ever since form 2.. it's thin, plain blue and white with some pictures found from the net and books which were scannned in the school lab..the whole thing is.. blue-ish.. dark blue, light blue, sky blue, aqua blue.. and well.. i like blue..but was still not satisfied, am i such a perfectionist? ( like what shemtam leikei have said?) dun think so.. cuz sometime i did things in the 'cin cai' way too..
yen's right, i need marks.. not self-satisfaction.. but i still can't get over myself.. humph~
faced alot of inconveniences while rushing for this project.. not just the last minute work ..but maybe juz too much inconveniences.. that i had no one else to blame except HIM, fate , and myself..

art- didnt go to school today (ponteng) cuz wanted to finish up the sketches of the side view .. then hopefully can get my hands on the perspective dot part..

haih~ dunno how to draw... :~ cuz not really good in art...

dunno why, felt really small when i saw her work.. really good, maybe too good.. was that a sign of envy or wut?
she told me before, that drawing is actually not a part of her interest, she draw because she can draw..
but what about me?? i draw becuz i LIKE to draw, but i CAN'T draw... im wondering, what actually i CAN do ler? starting to feel suspicious bout how fair HE could be..

lately- not feeling good, and can feel that ppl round me dun feel good too... and starting to be ..very sensitive.. (bad news)
i can always c her ignoring me.. :( but never too sure whether she's ignoring the phrase or me? did she do it on purpose cuz she dun like to listen or that she really didnt hear?? she gave no response nor answers or reaction, nothing at all when im talking to her.. it's as if im talking to the wall.. i felt.. embarrased when there's sumone else around, angry?.. can't be.. cuz i'd be 'xiao qi'.. but the feeling....is really not dat good.. got to admit that sumtimes i would wan to have attention, but at least she could..at least, tell me.. she don't feel like talking or answering or listening.. i'll know what to do by then.. but she didn't .. nothing at all..
is that because when the closer 2 person is.. the more secrets they hide from each another??

till yesterday morning in the lab, i can't hold it anymore and told her the she's always ignoring me.. and she said that im being UNREASONABLE.. :( m i that kind of person??!
maybe she've got problems on her own.. but then, she could at least tell me.. im not a worm in her .. i won't know what she's thinking unless she tell it to me.. i dun wanna force her.. but ... what should i do wor???
everytime when i sees that there's sumthing wrong with her only i'll check her blog.. sumtimes thinks that its wrong to do so.. cuz it's like breaking ppls privacy, but then.. in the other hand, she's the one sending it to me.. humph~
she seldom talk to me bout jing xiang, bout what happened.. but then everyone knows, except for me..
yesterday, she did mention, 'she wont say to the closer 1'

m i blaming it to her??
NO! NEVER.. cuz its never her fault, its all becuz of me.. so sensitive.. so unreasonable..

is that so, when they say the more u know urself, the more u hate urself? i think thats right..

she's like a rock made out of styrofome (dunno how to spell), looked hard on the outside, but actually its soft.. there are alot of things i fell like telling her.. but very afraid, afraid that'll hurt her..
in her blog, she didnt type out what she want to say straight from her heart anymore.. because she know ppl will be reading it.. (including me) ... dunno dunno dun care!~
WAKARANAI!

chin kuan- sumthing terrible happened, and she's really sad.. as friends, our hearts ached too..
this was the 1st time i heard that she cried in school.. what will happen soon? i dunno..
she's leaving for japan (student xhange programme) on friday for 2 weeks...can c that she's really tired.. tired of everything.. tired of studies, prefects, interacts.. and everything.. and now i feel guilty...and helpless..

kai xien- i don't know why and since when did i get involved with her, but yesterday, she's not looking good.. and that night, while we were chatting in the icq.. she told be bout it.. she n jacky..

siow wei- also don't know why and since when did i get involved with her.. maybe cuz after the messages we left on the wall at my sit.. she told me bout her stuff.. she trusted me.. and sheve said, im not lonely..
because i have them, true enough, but there are still 'things' that friends of family can't give or fill our hearts with.. there's still something missing..

prefect- ive resign ~ finally, i can taste what a normal students life after nearly 2 years or more, spend time with lie yuen and yen , quit doing things i feel stupid of like checking duties of prefects whom were never there.. finally i brought it up to mr. wong, but he wont let me go.. he say, if really wan to go through that kind of life again, he can give me 2 weeks off.. let me try the 'taste' of it and reconsider bout it..
dunno whether should feel happy or bad, both i suppose.. cuz it'll feel great to feel free.. n throw of the sick thoughts.. but also bad.. cuz.. chin kuan is still there, guilty, cuz it's like throwing off the burden to sumone elses shoulders..when the board is really in need of man power only i leave.. and will be worse if zzen n ca po also quit..

but during all these while , it was only ca po.. who gave me those soothing words..
and told me ' u muz do wut u feel like doing , play bao bao, have fun bao bao, and rest bao bao in this 2 weeks time and after that muz come back to us' ...
while the others were like 'good ler you, can have 2 weeks holidays'........

Sunday, September 22, 2002

Jimmy please say you will wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true
Joni was the girl who lived next door
I've know her I guess ten years or more
Joni wrote me a note one day
And this is what she had to say ...
#Jimmy please say you will wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true
Slowly I read her note once more
Then I went over to the house next door
Her teardrops fell like rain that day
When I told Joni what I had to say...
# Joni, Joni please don't cry
You'll forget me by-and-by
You're just fifteen I'm twenty-two
And Joni I just can't wait for you#
Soon I left our little home town
Got me a job and tried to settle down
But these words kept haunting my memory
The words that Joni said to me
# Jimmy please say you will wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true
I packed my clothes and I caught a plane
I had to see Joni I had to explain
How my heart was filled with her memories
And ask my Joni if she'd marry me
I ran all the way to the house next door
But things weren't like they were before
My teardrops fell like rain that day
When I heard what Joni had to say
Jimmy, Jimmy please don't cry
You'll forget me by-and-by
It's been five years since you've been gone
Jimmy I married your best friend John

Friday, September 20, 2002

lately.. bz with bio projects?.. erm.. quite.. but most of them time also doing it in school.
:( yesterday ler... typed nearly 8 pages liao.. suddenly the switch dropped.. and boom.. everything finish liao.. heartache.. type till fingers also starting to hardened up liao ( complain alot hor?)

y din do at home? cuz.. pc spoil liao lor.. humph.. cannot online.. canot listen to all the nice nice songs i have.. the project is suppose to be handed up by today.. but then i have no intention of doing it.. btw.. i think most of the ppl i know also din hand up today lor.. so i ponteng the last 2 moral lesson and stayed back in school till 4pm..

after dat, came home change and met up with chin kuan and lie yuen.. then to jj..
tot of waiting for yen there but she din arrive.. we're worried.. cuz maybe she cant find us then left, maybe she' ll be sad, too much maybe's.. then decided to call her lor... ai~ she's still at home and she's gonna cum to school with her dads car..

to school cuz we've got a lantern festival.. by mandrin club.. and bla bla bla.. 1st i was thnking dat its gonna be fun.. it was.. and it WAS.. cuz at the end.. things messed up alil..

tot mum n dad and the rest r going back malacca.. but then.. there's sum changes of plans .. and their going tomolo..

yens gonna overnight at my place and im gonna call loo kuan soon.. shit gotta make this fast cuz im in a cc now..

Tuesday, September 17, 2002

ever mentioned bout Alex? a penpal from ipoh?

haha~ bout the car accident, darn..he called me a day before the confrence with a really..erm.. serious tonne.. so it made me felt worried.. i din call him till a few days after the confrence.. and ill remember this.. haha.. (his wish for me to remember him 4ever) ill remember for what a jerk he've been and how stupid i am..

he's far away in ipoh...

and that day i called him ( his h/p) his voice sounded so damn excited .. and noisy+loud after less then 15 munites.. he ask me to call back later that evening.. fine.. i called.. cuz .. he seem to be such a 'fren'

wou~ the voice of his.. sounded 'terrible' as if can die any minute/ second.. and me? as if can cry out any minute/ second too.. but i was speecheless all along.. dunno what to say.. wan to hang up and he's like 'pls~ NO~ dont~.. dun leave me liddat~ im on my knees..' my heart... starting to melt liao.. felt pity+helpless and think dat he's hopeless.. haih~ dunno how much money ive wasted..
sure will be lectured by dad when the bills cum..

then the 2nd day, and the 3rd, :~ heart starting to ache.. but then also getting suspicious.. cuz.. the last time i call him, it was like he's as active and.. loud and noisy and healthy.. then that night he called me to call back him.. f**** him.. why cant he call me ler?? y muz i be the one callng him ler? cant he be a lil more considerate to me too ? is dat wut they call 'frenz'??? i dun c dat in yen and lie yuen and ck they all lor.. he's like wanting attention more like wut.. that time.. i tot 'wut to do? sick 'dai sai' mar..'

dat night i din call him too.. starting to feel irritated more then pitying already... so i called my brother to say im not at home..

round 2am... the phone kept ringing non-stop.. damn.. i juz pulled off the phone line and got my into bed..




yesterday..

actually we're planning to go to C U there to sell yen's winter sonata .. erm.. potrait..

but then.. it's raining cats and dogs so.. we took a ride back home on lie yuens car.. ( her brother the driver so 'yeng' :P)

we ran through the rain to the nearest xit..damn.. all wet.. and.. hehe yeng ler.. wearing WHITE school uniform summore..

after drying ourselves up.. get to call dat bastard to listen to his voice..

yen called.. telling him she's jo anne..

it goes like

yen: hello~ alex ar? ur going right? tomolo ur going to starbucks right?
alex: yeah sure..
bli bla bla bla
alex: who r u?
yen: huh? u dunno me??im joanne
alex: JESUS CHRIST how could i ever forget u?
im such a bli bla bla bla bi bla..
yen: so ur going out tomolo right? with me and my bf.. we're in jelapang now.. (sumthing liddat)

and the rest was hstory

damn him.. so energetic + xcited + desperate
as if got leukimia..
then we went out .. called him using my house home..
duh~ using that sick voice..

really wanna @$%^&** him liao..

nvm ler.. at least i noticed it early ... and we did have fun (chin kuan , yen, me) not wut fun ler.. juz talking and fooling around..

:( i landed on my ass.. hahha.. cuz the floor is slippery.. so i slipped.. and ouch~ everyones laughing like hell.. haih~ clumsy me.. 1 week dunno fall how many time..

Thursday, September 12, 2002

been back here since ... monday night.. from that confrence..

welll.. bout fun or not.. i also dunno.. no comment bout that.. ehhe lazy to compose everything out 1 by 1..
but im definately gonna miss the feeling there..cuz there's tonnes of guyz and gals.. all dressing to kill..

hmm.. what i really consider fun for the last 2 1/2 day is the time when we actually played prank calls..
im gonna miss that...

bout socializing.. i din really know much ppl there.. cuz we're all were broke into ten different groups..
i felt so small.. so alone.. though there's over 800 human beans there..

and after everythng.. when were back in kl.. yen n me joined lie yuen down town to meet ca po and zzen..
they took us to a cafe.. :) think its gonna be my new hang out place..

it's called ' c u there'... special huh~
the food.. not really what they say.. erm.. dunno how to say.... not as good as kim gary lor..
everythings simple but nice.. and what i like most.. is.. its dark..walls filled with writings.. messages.. and posters.. stripes of paper were hung on the ceilings.. and alot of drawings too..

theres even a corner juz for sammi.. with sammi's posters.. and playing her songs..

the 'lau ban niang' very friendly.. :) she joked around with us..

though that time zzen wasnt happy as we all know.. but i did enjoyed the feeling when im in dat place..
its not a high class restaurant.. juz a smple and nice cafe for .. ppl like us..

then ............ for after sum while.. we set off to klcc to catch 'so close' ( me and lie yuen) whilke the rest went to ca po's place...( yen, mei tin, zzen, pui see)

and the rest r history..

Saturday, September 07, 2002

tomolo's gonna be the conference.. still havent sleep yet..

today, din went to school.. cuz.. work lor.. need to get some xtra money to pay back chin kuan for the interact uniform (RM93) and so dat i can join lie yuen they all to genting as we've planned..

bt actually i was hoping to go to school, to c whats written on my wall.. by siow wei..

unxpected huh? wanna tell.. but very difficult for me to type here.. :P

still need to reply loo kuans mail..

nvm ler.. will type everything we wrote on the wall ... in chinese when im free
mm.. nothing much to type..

Thursday, September 05, 2002

A LIBRANZ PERSONALITY

Librans are among the most civilized of the twelve zodiacal characters and are often good looking. They are elegant, charming, naturally kind, gentle, and lovers of beauty, harmony and justice. They are able to stand back and look impartially at matters which call for an impartial judgment. Their love for balance and harmony make them cooperate and compromise with everyone around them. Among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval. They are also frivolous, flirtatious and shallow, changeable, indecisive and impatient of routine.

Ruling Planet: Venus
Color: Blue
Gemstone: Sapphire
Lucky Day: Friday
Body Parts Ruled: Lumber Region, Lower Back
Keyword: Harmony

ELEMENT & QUALITY
Element : Air
Quality : Cardinal
Gender : Masculine

CELEBRITIES
Michael Douglas
Will Smith
Sigourney Weaver
John Lennon

LOVE
Librans show understanding of the other person's point of view, trying to resolve any differences by compromise, and are often willing to allow claims against themselves to be settled to their own disadvantage rather than spoil a relationship. Libran is usually the most empathetic of all the zodiacal types and the most ready to tolerate the beloved's failings.

WORK
Librans are usually lazy. They dislike coarse, dirty work. However they can be surprisingly energetic and ambitious. They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity. Suitable careers include administrators, lawyers, civil servants, bankers, fashion-design, critics and writers.



oopz~
im getting a bit superstitious here~
but then.. quite true..

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

hehhe.. :P die ler die ler..

i didnt know i've 'gao chut ge dai tao fat' erm.. translated into english is " make a big head buddha" wakkakaka..

erm.. well.. cuz i didnt went to school, i mean i did.. but came home before school have even started.. ppl saw me.. erm.. pn. haslina (our mum), and students and.. alot of ppl.. well, they say i look kinda.. erm.. sad, down, angry wor... :P yameh~ just tired only mar.. * sigh..

i was not in class, and pn haslina was worried.. really worried.. hehe.. and of course.. lie yuen they all lor.. aiks.. as if i'm gonna kill myself pulak..

heard that they went searching up and down, calling this and dat, even my brother was worried, and his whole class worried with him (unbelievable)

haha, they tried to call to my home, but then ler.. erm.. me lor..still onlining to reply mail, cuz can't log into hotmail.. dats why still havent disconnect yet..

they called my mum, and silly enough, she thought the school thinks im 'ponteng-ing' and tried to cover me by telling them she came and fetch me home.. and pn haslina dun believe cuz Zher Eu and Wai Lum and dunno who saw me left with a cab..

:P and it was only my darling who's smart enough to think of checking my blogspot.. then only they know im safe and sound.. typing .. :)

then round 4 liddat sumone knocked onto my door.. guess who?
zzen and ca po was there.. :) asking what happened, and how m i.. ( so sweet)
after dat we went to jusco for erm..late lunch..

as usual, dunno what to eat.. zzen feel like eating japanese wor, cuz er.. tried chikuho ramen before and it sux, so we went into the mr. teppanyaki. capo had chiken tepp. and zzen have beef tepp. and me.. honey dew juice .

then went home and continue with the card i'm making for a fren .. ~_^ cuz though juz net frenz.. erm.. or barely net frenz.. well.. still frenz.. he mailed me a pepper spray after knowing that i've been.. erm.. robbed.. (so nice of him)

and then.. fried rice and made some toast for them for dinner ( mmmmm~ as usual, it's ichiban.. hehe perasan) then.. gao tim the chores then hopped onto bed liao..




today,

wah.. need to apologize to alot alot of ppl for my dissapearance..

:) felt .. erm.. a lil bit of guilt ( cuz caused alot of ppl to worry bout me while im still deep in my dreamz) + glad ( cuz now only i noticed.. alot of ppl concerned about me)



then during co co lesson.. sigh~ felt like stray dog.. not knowing where we're heading to, without a home..stay in class, mdm. teh ask us to go down.. go down liao.. no where to go.. went to find kenny goh to change our unit.. but as usual, he rejected..
then.. since no where to go.. we went to the library, but the woman there say need letter wor.. so we stayed out side the library, :P still comfortable though.. and talk..

selfish, everyone's selfish, you have to be, if not.. it's impossible for you to survive in this society cuz it's either you die or they die.. selfish is sumthing you must have in order to be what you want..as long as your selfishness does not harm others, i don't think there's anything wrong with it..
say, if you can really find someone UNselfish, he's either a saint or he's someone who wans to leave earth early.. :P dats the fact~

aiks.. still can't finish replying my mailz.. ehhe.. kept it there for ages..

Tuesday, September 03, 2002

this morning.. woke up late, but still manage to catch the bus..

arrived school, but xtremely tired though slept early last night..and my hand.. pain pain..

called back home and mum asked me to cum home..

so i took a cab back home.. and landed right on bed once im home..

then now.. hehe.. typing in here lor..

but then.. can't reply mailz.. cuz dunno wut the heck.. can't log into hotmail ger..

while irc-ing..guess what.. there's a gal, joey.. rachel's elder sister .. also from sbu.. we've chatted.. and she's fun..

the joey i know.. was pretty well.. really really pretty, juz like rachel

Monday, September 02, 2002

it have been 2 dayz.. 2 dayz since ive been robbed... :P though it looks more as if im bein raped than bein robbed.

well, should say it's kinda silly+adventurous+terrifying+ dunno what and what feeling..

it's on the national day.. round 6am++ , i left from ca pos house with a cab down to the lrt station ( bridge).. actually in the cab i also sense sumthing wrong liao.. the driver's a man (ofcourse) erm.. as usual, one of the ppl i considered as perverts..
short, fat, dark, malay, and.. noisy (can't quit asking questions)
he drove a big circle round ampang area...actually he need'nt do tht cuz the way back to my place from klcc is just a straight highway..and he's driving to places im unfamiliar with.. when i asked where he's going, he didnt reply.. so fine~ i called up my mum using her h/p (she lent it to me so i can call her up incase anything happen) telling her im now in the cab, on my way home. maybe the driver changed his mind guar.. though actually i tot he was heading to a malay village in desa pandan he turned into another path down to kampung pandan.. okie..now i felt relief a bit.. then im safely .. on the brigde.

saw a dime motorcycle light.. without driver ( cuz the driver is dark, real dark) and i'm stupid enough to think that he's just waiting for sumone. ( my senses r really char) .. and never tot that anything's gonna happen... walked step by step up the stairs..

saw 2 indian guyz.. 1 on the bike and another running up the bridge.. and was also stupid enough to think that he's just rushing back home..

fuck him, felt a sudden strength pulling my bag, that bastard tried hard to snatch my bag.. hahaha.. he got the wrong person man.. not that i know karate or any martial arts that'll kick his ass off .. but i'm not those who'll give him the stuff ge lor..
for me.. struggling back and shouting +cursing back is what i'll do.. though ppl say ... it's really stupid doing so, but normal reaction also liddat ge lar...

he pulled me onto my knees.. and keep pulling the bag.. but ive still got it in hand.. and dunno how .. i pulled it back(while cursing) and he tumbled down the stairs and went off with he's partner or wutsoever.. and .. it's lucky for me cuz he didn't have a knife or weapons around with him and can c he's a lousy robber.. as for him.. it's unlucky for him cuz.. im not what he's xpecting and.. blame himself cuz he's a lousy robber..

while struggling, :( got bruise on my fingers, arms, knee, face.. also dunno how did i got it there.. (dats y, it looks more as if bein raped than robbed)

while struggling, i dropped my new clock, a prize from the art competition.. and the glass broked..
after the idiots left, i felt like running home.. but then.. dun feel like losing it, cuz though nothing speacial, but it's still a reward ive earned from sumthing ive did ( with yen) so went all the way back down the stairs for the thing..

on my way back.. (the middle of the bridge) here cums another bastard. damn him.. by that time i still can't feel the fright, all i have in mind was anger.. burning inside..

he was walking past me.. then suddenly tried to grab my bag..

i tucked it under my arms.. so it's kinda difficult for him to get it.. and he's another lousy robber..
cuz of my usual temper.. i really shouted at him like shit.. kept cursing and what's funny is, im still able to say out alot of things.. ' F u , it's merdeka day and as malay u can still cum out and rob ar?! arent u ashame of your self..'

he let go and walked off.. ( walked, not ran) what ashame..

i wanna cry, but tears just won't cum out.. i ran.. as fast i could... and finally.. saw the ticket counter..

walked as fast as possible back and.. my block.. izzint as safe either.. but all im hoping is.. to get home.. to get home..
and finallly.. im home..


rang lie yuen up.. and told her bout it.. she's like 'HA?? ARE U OKIE? SHOULD WE CUM N C U NOW??' no pls.. cuz.. im darn tired.. and hurt.. i mean the pain .. my flesh.. torn apart.. yucks..with bruises and cuts and.. purplish..

went to wash the bruises and cuts.. got changed and hopped onto bed.. then only i cry.. well.. sob.. er.. wutever..
and the minute... fell asleep jor..

the next morning.. mum asked what happened.. ( wen chang told her) and i xplained everything..

okie.. now she's laughing, worrying at the same time.. maybe a lil too bz to feel anything cuz got to rush down to klang as the fair starts at 10am .. and only 'aiyoo' here 'aiyooo' there..nvm lor.. i also dun really mind ger..

after a mornign shower.. got dressed up, and the whole house was empty.. everyone went out.. and im supposed to wait for grand aunt to get an lrt down to sg besi and wait for my aunt so i can get to serdang..
but before everything, got nuthing to do.. and just felt like talking..
wanna call up ly, but then their still in capo's house at tht time.. dun wan them to worry much liao..

so, decide to call loo kuan ( also dunno y wanna call him)
told him bout it.. and kept on talking.. ( very talkative hor?) then.. like this and liddat lor..
he said that he'll help me to take notice on those stuff which can kinda prevent perverts, robbers, or dunno wut.. and dats weird..
:P tot he dun wanna meet ger? how's he gonna hand me those stuff incase he bought it? :P dunno dun care..

then 'gu po' finally arrive.. ai.. dunno what to say bout her.. but she's 1 of the ppl i dun like..

my aunt was late and she didnt even arrive.. and instead, the van driver was there .. also late for more than 15 minutes..

in serdang.. i tot there's a worker there.. but no.. there's no one.. no one helped me to open the stall.. no one told me how to place / arrange the stuff... now im really really mad..

no h/p, so got to get a public phone.. and damn..malay kidz hanging on it.. fine.. borrowed it with the pregnant lady next door..

talked in a kinda harsh tone to my mum ( it's wrong, but just can't control it) :( nearly gonna cry..
how cum.. how can she think that im her.. can get use to any situation???

u wan me to do sumthing for u.. im most willing too.. but dun dump everything to me without telling me wut to do or how to start.. im not good at it and it'll be like a piece of shit..

the 1st thing she told me is ' ni bu yao ku xien' ... how can bu yao ku wor.. :~ i dun have the cashier's key, dun have small change, dunno how to place everything.. dunno anything..

after hanging up .. i still dun get anything.. cuz she's still her.. always 'mou lei tap sap' nvm lor.. no matter wut, still have to go through the day..

asked the lady next door whether she've got any idea on how to work things out.. and she briefly showed it to me.. so i also briefly know a bit dunno a bit lor... and also briefly arrange the stuff lor..

bout small change.. got it out from my own pocket.. and start to work things out lor..


aiks.. pc lab gotta close liao..
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