Saturday, May 31, 2003

to those who knows me n reading this blog..

for your information, im working in shah alam this holz so it's either to call me after 11pm or catch me on icq irc or whatever..

and to those, you know who you are frenz, if you ppl going to camerons.. have fun.. :) and don't forget me.. hehe..

hey.. im starting to miss you guyz.. and its for real.. need to wait till round a week oni will be able to c u all..

chin kuan, you're not lonely..

Friday, May 23, 2003

Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you. Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for
you. It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...

:: A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves
me more than I love him ::

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some
reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths
crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.

::Time will tell. if he's yours he will surely come back.::

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

Thank you Sh@dow for your lovely card... well.. unless your not reading this..

and thanx for everything.. ~_^ great to have you here..

Saturday, May 17, 2003

day's going on fine, just as usual.. nothing much happened.. but maybe cuz exactly nothing happened.. im starting to feel bout something..

frenz.. now i seem to care less.. maybe cuz starting to feel tired, tired of doing things which now seems to be silly to me.. and others..
well.. who the hell cares?
sick of the holz, though can take lotsa rest hanging myself on the line but i think this is the main cause that our gap here.. is getting wider and wider..it's like everyone's livin their own life.. including me.. with mine..

i seem to spend my time with strangers more than with them.. but why should i feel anything?
but i still miss them.. all of them..

yen.. who's starting to be a stranger to me..lie yuen.. ca po.. though she sits right beside me.. zzen.. he hardly talk other then 'hi' and 'bye' ... chin kuan.. i still owe her a sum of money..
humph... is this what we have to go through during the so called 'teenage' years.. when we are starting to grow.. starting to be whom we are..

Wednesday, May 14, 2003

there are lotsa things that i want you to know, but don't ever think that you might even care..maybe before you do, but just not now

being very busy with your studies lately? am i simply accusing you or are your really with her nearly everyday since then?
am i being jealous over silly stuff or are those which i am saying now are all facts? i know female insincts are always right.. well.. at least most of the time also might be right..
why can't you just be frank with me?
haven't i told you before? that though sometimes the truth might hurt, but a lie will hurt a thousand times more?
i am so blur now, bout you and me right now.. who am i to you? this wasn't the first time i'm asking this question and you told me that you wouldn't like to answer these kinda questions anymore..
or maybe you feel annoyed bout this.. or.. you yourself is not so sure bout it too..

how come that everytime when there's a miracle, there must be a dissapointment?
how come your being so cold to me?
how come your hiding it from me?
and how come i don't know how to treat a guy right?

why are you different with them? i mean..how come that i feel that you are different being compared to them? i've never felt this hurt because of a guy before, but why cuz of you?
i want to be alone after him, and i thought that i will be.. and you appeared..
are things which are easily owned will be easily disowned.. erm.. taking things for granted..

i don't want to be annoying to you, i don't want to be so sensative

what have i done? i'm trying my best to be your best girl, doing things i've never done for a guy before.. wanting you to feel that i'm as special as you are to me.
but sometimes it's true enough, how can a simple and ordinary cherry catch the attention of jeff? how can cherry keep jeff's heart? how can cherry know whats runnin in jeff's mind?
i don't mind whether i'm a passer-by in your life, don't mind whether your going after her, just as long as you tell it all yourself to me. you've promised, don't you remember?
you've promised that when there's something wrong, and feels like breaking up, you won't wait till i say it out, you'll make the move first. if you do, i won't hesitate to let you go, cuz i know you must have made your mind and came out with this decision..
you've found someone better, someone who can give you what i can't.. but you didn't , you just kept avoiding, torturing me..wanting me to be the one who wants to break up.. i won't do it, no.. cuz i haven't gave you up..

i remember every single detail of you, what you said, near to everything..

the clothes you wear from the first day we met till the last time we were seeing each another..
the first time we met was in town.. opposite kota raya, you were wearing a yellow and beige checkbox shirt with a brown sling bag which matched your attire looking very tired cuz running down from that building to meet me..
you bought 'smint, wild berry flavour ' candy and which i supposed, was your favourite..
it was drizzling and as starting to pour, and you were saying how romantic it was on our first date and that time in my mind was 'how silly'
we took lrt back to maluri and on the train both of us stand, cuz i like to stand. i remember that i was looking at you with a puzled face cuz kinda blur bout what you were talking about and you jokingly said ' don't look at me liddat, if not you'll fall for me, oopz.. i mean i will fall for you'
i was even more suprised then but took it as a joke. we went to meet your friends down a mamak somewhere near the lrt station, i stepped on your shoe, and gave me a very serious look saying ' you owe me something ' while i kept apologizing ..
you walk me to the lrt and took the lrt home, i saw you looking back and wave when you were walking up the stairs..
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the second, wearing a grey durban body fit t-shirt, that night those people were playing mah jong, and it was very noisy, i went down to the public phone to give a call hoping that maybe could have some chat cuz i was feeling really blue, and you say you would like to come over..
i feel as if when i would wanna have someone who'll be by my side when i needed him, and poof~~ you're here.. it felt good.

the third, you were working in vincci, in your uniform.. i was there for lunch with my friends.. but actually is to see you.

the next day, you said that you'll call me after work so we can go and have dinner together.. you called up .. but vv tired, so i followed you home so you can take a shower and freshen up..



can't go on typing anymore...









and...wut is left is all still in my mind..

there's nothing much to say now.. as u have decided to put it all in the history..

Monday, May 12, 2003

on 9/5/2003 - everything ends..

tq for atleast being frank..

Sunday, May 04, 2003

why do you have to hide things from me?

i just want to know, i didnt mean to make you feel annoyed..

and who am i to you? am i just a passer-by in your life?

Saturday, May 03, 2003

feeling so uncomfortable.. cuz it's as if you're treating me so cold so suddenly.. i can't convince myself nothing is happening..

does this always happen when im being sensative? i hate it..

what are you doing right now? whom are you with? what is in your mind? do i exist?

Friday, May 02, 2003

who am i to you right now?

say it to me the words beneath your heart
let me know what you're thinking
quit letting me do all the guessing

and who am i now?

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