Thursday, February 24, 2005
Doing some cleaning up, digging out piles and piles of all those past memoriblia hidden neatly under covers of boxes stacked up at a corner of my room..
Found letters.. diaries.. and sketches.. and this remind's me of her..dear, remember a potrait of a local artist you sketched for me instantly..the day you nearly lost your precious cd? .. It brought back everything.. Remember when we started to get close? .. You read my blog that day, bout my life.. you sent me emails and called me out.. I think it all started from there..
.. but things are a lil messed up sometimes.. when I wanted to understand you so badly.. wants to know what's going on in your mind .. and gets worst when envy.. turns into jealousy.. it's all inside of me which I've never let it out..
The Confession: You're everything I see myself in.. and hates it when you said you're not satisfied.. I'm so proud to have a friend who's so talented and yet so beautiful.. and that is why I feel so small everytime I stand beside her.. I don't have a big heart..I feel so ashame and guilty for having such ugly thoughts.. and that is why I chose to stay away, just to make myself feel better.. by not comparing myself to someone I'll never be able to compare with..
I always thought I knew you from the start.. but guess I'm wrong.. cuz I never did.. silly me..
but what I really wish to know.. who am I to you.. ? .. Another stranger that passes by like every other day?
.. .. I apologize, and I missed you.. We missed you....
__cherry drips*
2/24/2005 11:06:00 PM
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
CHAP GOH MEH~
tells the end of Chinese new year.. but it doesn't seem like making any difference, isn't it?
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The only thing is everyone's going back to school and jobs at work, and the same goes with me, will be setting up at PJ and Sg. Buloh tomorrow.. meeting those I've lost contact for the past few months.. and those I've tried avoid seeing.. It'll all be back as usual by tomorrow..
....This holz have been too long .. making me feeling too lazy.. not having the urge to even move, so don't even mention work~
Aunt Jo took a bus back to Malacca yesterday and will be leaving for Dubai on a Saturday night flight.. so she won't possibly be back to KL till Julai or August this year.. will be missing her.. alot. She've been staying here these few days to settle some of her stuff, and I'm the one accompanying her around cuz since I'm dying of boredom staying at home .. and as long as I remember, this is the first time ever I've walked her around KL for such long and tiring hours.. right, and I'm not expecting anything for return.. I can be very very materialistic sometimes when favours are in concerned but never to friends and family.. She doesn't have to and it's not necessary for her to pay me or buy me anything at all, but still, she stuffed RM500 into my hands before leaving..
it's a shame for me to accept it.. but I did..felt really bad, cuz she's my aunt though I know she could afford it.. but I really shouldn't have taken it.. and I did.. as for I really wanted it badly for buying myself a new pc .. ..
..GUILTY..
__cherry drips*
2/23/2005 02:32:00 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
........ SLEEPY eyes.......
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Just got back from Leisure mall, and bought myself a pair of very nice heels.. *^_~*
..was with Shadow.. and fed ourselves with Baskin Robins 31 ice-cream+lunch at 'Huan xi di' nearby.. very very very satisfying.. but yet.. I'm not full, Humph~ gotta quit food real 'soon'..
Urgh..~bored.. I'M GONNA GET THAT PAIR OF CONVERSE SNEAKERS!! NO MATTER WHAT!~
__cherry drips*
2/20/2005 06:31:00 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Feelin ..... extreme LAZINESS once gotten out of bed..
.... too lazy to get up..
...lazy to eat..
..lazy to move..
thought of looking for Shadow later on this evening and pay a visit to the pasar malam near by, but gave up the thought the next two hours lazying around watching tv ,feeling hot breeze all around... ..... it's killing me.... Urgh~
hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot
but at last.. later that afternoon, I manage to drag mum and dad along with me to Sg. wang.. cuz since she wanted to get a new phone and.. dad sponsered me some cash for a new pair of glasses \ ~-^ / cuz he just can't stand to see me sitting only two inches away from the tv screen..
It's really nice to see them walking around holding hands.. and I'm feeling so good to have them coming out with me without ending it with silly arguments over stupid topics.. *^-^*
__cherry drips*
2/17/2005 01:36:00 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
A belated Valentines's wish~ = >
Ha~ but it doesn't seem to have anything to do with me.. life still goes on, isn't it? So what's the deal?
This year, everything's still the same.. the only difference is:
- didn't simply plan a blind date with strangers over the net this year..
- didn't recieve any gifts from anyone this year..
and the similarity every year: never had a boyfriend to celebrate with on the exact date every year..
............ But hey, it's not so sad .. cuz afterall, I still have SHADOW.. and being very thankful, bcuz she's single as well *^-^*and we celebrated today by satisfying ourselves with Genki Sushi.. ichiban desho~ and who says Valentine's are only meant to be for LOvers? I'm having fun with my dearest friend, and "that's the way I like it"~ \^0^/~ hoo hoo hoo~
more pictures here>>>
Filled with hope, I start my search for that pair of Converse sneakers...that pair I've spotted in Kuantan.. that pair that made me searching all over KL .. just to make it mine.. and yet, they keep telling me,"Sorry, Takde size lah"... humph~
(-_-) start feeling down.. but we didn't stay long as well, cuz Aunt Jo is in KL..
converse converse converse converse converse converse converse converse
Made my way to Bukit Bintang to meet up with Aunt JO and Chew Yee ..
.... and spent the rest of the evening taking trains from
bkt bintang->hang tuah->home->masjid jamek->kerinchi->sentul
to do what she've got to do.. Exhausted!!~
__cherry drips*
2/16/2005 08:06:00 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Back at home....
...finally settled down after the hustle and bustle due to Chinese New Year, and different celebration this year.. and a very memorable one with everyone from near and far returning with happy hearts back to granny's house (wai po jia) at Malacca this new year.. This only happens once in a blue moon since all my aunts and uncle is all around the world, Aunt Jenny and family stayed for about two months before moving back to Manchester, UK on the 3rd day of new year, Aunt Jo from Dubai looking pretty and extremely fit with her well toned figure .. back to settle some of her stuffs in KL, and my 'Da jiu jiu' (eldest uncle) with his family flew back from Brunei the last minute before new years day just like every year..
A last goodbye to Aunt Jenny and Family at the airport
more pictures here>>>>
It's near to perfect, with everbody's presence.. but yet,NOTHING can possibly be perfect cuz there is still people who's missing, dad, May Ling, and Uncle Chris.. how can they let this family reunion to actually slip like away just like that?
... Always been wondering why I can be this close to this family, my mothers side.. was it really because I they're the ones I left my memories with during my childhood years? Can never really get along with cousins from the other side, my dad's side.. and was it cuz of the antenna matter or ... what? Don't like the way they speak, the way they commented.. their stares which says: you don't belong here..
But no matter what, I'm glad I'm back this year..
__cherry drips*
2/15/2005 08:30:00 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Erm........ er........... mmmmmmm.........
............. have been sitting here for the last 1/2 hr ...and guess what~
.....................still have no idea where to start though things were quite happening lately......
hehehe.. *^-^* glad to be back.. and great to see you, Shadow~
__cherry drips*
2/12/2005 09:08:00 PM